Massive lashback ^^

If the title fooled you, HAHAHAHAHAHA! There's nothing massive here to read so I...

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Anyways, yes yes. I haven't been posting for a while. Some people have just hinted or came outright that they read my blog to check up on my life so since my reply to the question "So how's life?" comes with a "It's ok.", I thought I might as well put something here being a blog and all.

(And not being able to access the disk(sp?) I brought is also another issue :p)

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Well... everything's been... ok ^^

THE END



Fine fine! I admit. It hasn't been all rosy. But that's life eh? I thought before I begin, we take a peek into other peoples lives.

How?

Look at their Facebook comments of course.
They are:-

- says "WHEN LUV GOES WRONG, EVERYTHING GOES WRONG"!!
- is viewing xixi's blog
- had a totally awesome time at The Hunt! XD I am so going to get whoever it is to fix the freashfaces website. The voting deadline is so near! -(><)-.
- is celebrating hari raya in melaka.
- is drinking a BIGGEST cup wit teh tarik... 3 - 4kg weight!
- is preparing for the upcoming doomsday week..
- is determined !
- feels so tired n sleepy.
- is off to SL from 29 Sept-5 Oct! Pls pray for us and the team!
- 's otak has some content anyway...
- is hyping something.
- is at starbucks having muffin & greentea latte :D.
- ~buzziE... BacK In M'cCa...
- is still in sakae sushi. Code Geass R2 ending is shocking.
- says "suplise!"
- simply loves simplicity. it is just so simplifying! :)).
- will be attending 'The Sleeping Beauty' ballet!
- R is for the Rendang that u eat, A is for the Angpow that is green, Y is Your invite to your house, A is for All the holidays that we get.
- is loving Barbara Bonney`s rendition of Ave Maria.
-wishes all her Muslim family and friends Salam Aidilfitri!! Maaf zahir batin!!
- is resting...is very sorry and guilty ..
- is busy playing guess the sketch.
- is very very very blessed !!!!
- is preparing for tea party and barbeque.. beach themed.
- is kangblabla hardcore photographing on thursday and friday!!!
- had a wonderful day... and is waiting for THE pictures =).
- me luv u baskin robbins;..-) longing 4u..........
- is eating grapes now....
- is looking for a housemate. Location : Palm Spring @ D'sara near The Curve. For more info, visit www.housenotice.com. Thanks!
- noted of religion wif nation's politic enhancing de coming times.....out of de abundance of heart de...
- is frust of the water leakage from the top of the roof!! bloody get some renovation!!
- is pangsai-ing........-_-."
- is writting new book about Neosocialism and Capitalcommunism.
- is in a boutique watching fiance trying gowns for wedding.
- just got back from Deluge Nite.. am dead tired.. >.<.
- think ''we should be contented..."
- is working in UberFusion now..
- is happy today is Friday. Hope nothing stupid crops up.
- will be a teetotalist in approx 2 days =).
- shouts, "SOMETHING'S GOTTA GIVE!"
- is being happy birthday-ed, thanks all..
- has just one more to go!woohoo!
- is going to shout. yuan wong ahh!!!

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And so on and so forth.

So what would that tell you? From the short list here (it's not everyone in my contact list. I gave up trying to copy and paste all of them), you can pretty much see that people are different and they live different philosophies and different lifestyles.

In school we all kinda become as uniformed as the ones we wear in school. But when we come to college... Aha! Differences, ideals crop up distorting what would be a picture perfect view of the world.

The fact is, people are different and there is NO steryotype(sp?) for any person. A person who is quiet to you would not necessarily be a nerd or a person who studies or what not. He could be very vocal when it comes to certain times and appropriate times. Or someone who is very talkative is not necesarily your jock/miss popular kind of person at other places.

And not only saying that, we still have to count moods in. I could be the world's greatest speaker but in actual fact I only do that when I am roused to a certain topic. Or I could be the most boisterous one around when it comes to parties and then suddenly fall into some emo, quiet and darkly composed mood the next day.

The phrase "don't judge a book by its cover" has been repeated time and time again only because it has not sunk in. That's what we all are. JUDGES. Judges towards what people are, either consciously or subconsiously. WE do it all the time, putting every person into the standard mental boxes in our heads, pinning everyone to their safe places within our cerebral worlds.

That's just that being that and that. That's not much to say about it but I've been given unlimited space and a rather large ammount of time to do nothing.

In essence, don't think you have to lift yourself up to the standards of others. If they don't think they like you or they need you, fine! There are billions of other people in the world.

If the whole world turns its back on you, fine! I still have the Loving Father ready to accept me at anytime.

That's what we love about God eh?

It's not about being holy or hip, annointed or blessed or cursed or sinful or within the rules of the Word or whether I am in the right denomination or the right path or the right way or what not.

The important thing is that we LOVE God. And we remain as crazy about Him as He is about us. I mean come on! Whose's crazy enough to die for you so that He could spend time with you?

It's not about the things the movies or people teach you. It's not about being holy or about holy verses or about your annointed hands or your prophercy or your gifts or the way some chord is played right in some hyped up worship concert. Or whether you went to some camp or some retreat or some class.

So that's one thing I'm telling everyone.

Stop trying to force your stereotypes on me. Or anybody else for that matter.

I'm not trying to be holy or smart or wise or eternally happy or a person who does his devotions 24-7 or doing what you think I am doing. I'm just being myself, going with MY God and hopefully making you understand that He just DIED TO BE YOUR GOD AS WELL AS MINE.

Think about it. Stop judging me and putting your social rings and boxes on me. I feel so suffocated and drained for having to live up to those standards. Which is why I love God! He sets the standard but he never ever pushes me. He just waits for me to come along and waits as I refuse to move at times. It's just Him. He loves me for who I am.

Tired. Depressed at times. Lazy. Having a couldn't care less attitude. Honest at most times. And a person who thinks he's empathic when he most likely isn't.

And so on and so forth.

Heck, I dare not even JUDGE MYSELF. Let alone anyone else. That's what Paul said and I respect the wisdom there.

Only God is worthy of such judgment. And if He doesn't judge me, who can? Not me. And certainly not you.

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If you are wondering why the sudden explosion? It's not an explosion. It's merely me, calmly typing in an air-conditioned office, knowing that unlimited space can be a sin ^^ As well as literary skills of course.

And if you are also wondering why this blog only features emo stuff, get ONE...THING...STRAIGHT...

It's a blog, a place where I store all the things I cannot say or dare not say. So be happy when I don't post. Coz that would mean...

I have no emo-things to pen down. Rejoice!

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Do I judge myself too hard or press people's unintended expectations on myself?

Most probably.

But that would mean only one thing.

I'm human.

Emo-ness over and out.

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PS: For those of you who have commented and I have not replied. It's because I have nothing significant to add ^^ Or probably its because I'm lazy.